Yearning to be Free I am In a world where freedom has something to do with making more money and getting others to do what you want I am Trying to get away from it all to escape into insanity is the sane thing to do I am Wandering Getting lost and not caring Trying to find myself Lying down in a city park Trying to convince someone to drive me to canada I am Listening to music Listening loud but with headphones The CD is on random and the stations fly by as the radio dial spins Real student radio, a pirate, Radio Habana Cuba Freeing my ears, I am Running through the dark night as thunder claps overhead and bursts of lightning etch their memory into my eyes while lighting my way Drenching myself Liberating icecream from the cafeteria I am On a train somewhere between Goshen and Indianapolis going South leaning out a boxcar with my hair blowing in the wind, my body warm in the sun, and the countryside rolling on by I am Walking crooked skipping pretending to run into trees barefoot feeling the pang of a small stone, the tickle of the grass, the wetness in a puddle, and the warmth of the blacktop Ignoring the children who are commenting finding pride in the stares With a flower in my hair, I am Seizing the airwaves Broadcasting the truth the voices of the oppressed of guerillas, of communists and their music whether or not anyone is listening I am Dreaming and planning for my life, but more immediately for grad school and all the people I will meet there their abilities their truths they can teach me and each other their power from within So much we can do and will I am Finding time to read what I want Interlibrary-loan-requesting "Steal This Book" Waiting Getting turned down ten times before getting it reading it cover to cover I am Stating Ideas that seem strange and foreign Wondering if property destruction is violent? Trying to discuss Latin American politics. the Zapatista insurgency in Chiapas Meeting with puzzled or blank faces, I am Sleepin in any day of the week for eleven hours Praying for meaning in my dreams Setting my alarm for thirty minutes later, I am Skipping class attending a student conference because there's more to be learnt outside My professor may be missing me But not I, for I am Breaking the law (again) which one, I'd rather not say Violating Goshen College standards (again) though not harming anyone I am Playing God in a universe I created watching my city or civilization grow Fighting off the evil monsters on a quest I don't understand and never will fufill Staring at this screen Typing a diatribe hoping someone will read it, and care I am In the streets with tens with hundreds with thousands one day with millions taking them back! I am Looking out the window at a tree watching the snow fall gently from the sky not at the teacher not at the notes on the overhead not answering his mind-numbing simple questions sowing the seeds of a poem in my mind, I am Writing a computer program that, if it won't change the world and win the revolution for us will at least let me rotate nice coloured blocks and fit them into my pattern I am Praying for the overthrow of the government (s) (again) Burma, Mexico, and naturally the US wondering if God is "on our side"? I am Drugging myself on a lonely Friday night with chocolate icecream and M&Ms I am write a letter to the president of the United States of America in French Fed-up with canned replies, I am freeing my emotions trying to care, to share, to love and show it because I'm human I am Reinventing myself trying to live Maurin's "personal revolution" tossing out old ideas developing new Constantly changing, I am Reading Hayduke Lives on a Sunday morning in late November outside by a dam as snow flakes land gently on my coat Writing "EF!" with my feet in the snow Raising a clenched fist to the sky, I am Wearing a large paper mache bell costume handing out chocolate Hershey kisses during final exams Answering questions as to my "political purpose" Smiling I am Yearning to be free I am In a world where freedom has something to do with making more money and getting others to do what you want I am